On My Own

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On My own was recorded over the course of two weeks in a living room with help from some of my closest friends. Big thanks to Ryan Jensen, Callie Burns and Nathan Childers for pushing me to write and re-write these songs to make them what they are today.
Thank you to everyone who has ever come out to a show, bought a shirt, or listened to the demos. Your support means the world to me. This is for you all.

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released October 21, 2016

All songs written by Tyler Wells
Recorded, mixed & mastered by Ryan Jensen
Album art by Kilian McMann

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Track Name: On the Wall
Inconsistent tendencies
Caught writing on the walls again
Just so you can plainly see
How quickly I digress
Another bad habit
I keep telling myself to kick
No, this is not another guilt trip
But darling I feel so sick

This is not another one of those narcissistic love songs
I won't leave your name up on the wall
This could be something that I finally feel proud of
Instead of a waste of time

Misguided dependencies
I'm face down on the floor again
I still don't know if you can see
Without you I'm a mess
A lot of bad habits
I'm trying to let go
Just so you can plainly see
How I forced myself to grow

This is not another one of those narcissistic love songs
I won't leave your name up on the wall
This could be something that I finally feel proud of
Instead of a waste of time
Track Name: Change
I never realize what's right there in front of me
Opportunities lay wasted at my feet
I'll pick myself up and I'll brush off my busted knees
Should've known to rip the bandage off
Before it started to bleed

I know day by day
Things can change
I'll keep a level head and stand on my own two feet
I don't need you
I can do this on my own

I can't sleep but I promise I'm getting better
Use all my time alone to help myself
Nathan said spend the summer building a better man
Come out on the other side someone you're proud of

I know day by day
Things can change
I'll keep a level head and stand on my own two feet
I don't need you
I can do this on my own
Track Name: Bitter Pill
This is a bitter pill to swallow
As you walk across the room
I stand buried in this corner
Yeah, this place feels like a tomb
Autumn hair hangs past your shoulders
Wraps itself around my neck
I can tell tomorrow morning
We'll both be covered in regret

Thanks again for the offer
But I don't need a hand to hold
Those three words you said to me
Now they sound so old
It seems like we were chasing them
With no end goal in mind
So while I'm out there getting ahead
I'm afraid you're left behind

It's been far too long since you've been around
Can you even say you know me and who I am now
Track Name: Twenty Minutes to Penn
Swear you see my face in northbound traffic
Well aware I hate the snow
You're already in my rearview mirror
Before I've turned to go
It's a biting cold December
Without your body near
And all those empty nothings
You used to whisper in my ear

I've learned not to make promises
They always end up buried, broken
You said you'd alway be here waiting
I never said the same

I can hear your voice in moments fleeting
The sound used to feel so full
Drawers left open messy
Clothes scattered across the floor
There's this billboard up in Pittsburgh
The words always grow so old
I'm left standing underneath
Screaming at the cold

I've learned not to make promises
They always end up buried, broken
You said you'd alway be here waiting
I never said the same
Track Name: Notebook
How did you feel when you buried your son
Out of seven kids, he was the oldest one
I know you loved him like his real father should have
Now he's gone, where does that leave you

This world's apathetic, we know this by now
That's what led your kid to stick that gun in his mouth
I know you loved him like his real father should have
Now he's gone, where does that leave you

I should have written the date on my hand
On the day that I first felt my heart break
Now I don't remember
No, I don't want to remember

No, I don't blame you
I just can't find the words
On how this buried
More than my friend